I’m fucking fed up. I’m tired of this. My bf is the worst, and he knows and yet he doesn’t give a shit. What can I do? I had it good, a few months ago. I met someone, who was everything he’s not. And I don’t think I could ever stop thinking about him. Now, I’m with this douchebag. I don’t understand why he just wants to be this way, irresponsible and lazy, yet he makes that effort to be with someone else, why did you come back to me, crawling on your knees. Why?!! when I was doing so well on my own. I think you rather see me miserable, and you can do whatever the fuck you want. I have so much rage. He knows of it. And that’s what kills me, he knows. Well fuck you!! I’ve concocted a plan. I will let you be, but I will never love you the same way, I will never feel the same way. And I’m never going to marry you. Because I can’t marry you, someone I don’t love, and also because my heart already met someone who can feel the same way. Even though, he may not. I know I will feel better off by myself.
soft light, a scent in the air, the quiet murmur of the city.
Today. The sky is filled with grey blotches. I hear a robin chirping. And then I feel drops of rain, even when I am distracted by beauty my mind just withers and starts back to you.